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This is the kingdom of the fading apparition, The oracular ghost who dwindles on pin-legs To a knot of laundry, with a classic bunch of sheets Upraised, as a hand, emblematic of farewell. At this joint between two worlds and two entirely Incompatible modes of time, the raw material Of our meat-and-potato thoughts assumes the nimbus Of ambrosial revelation. And so departs. Chair and bureau are the hieroglyphs Of some godly utterance wakened heads ignore: So these posed sheets, before they thin to nothing, Speak in sign language of a lost otherworld, A world we lose by merely waking up. Trailing its <a href="a/the_ghosts_leavetaking.mp3" target="_self">telltale</a> tatters only at the outermost Fringe of mundane vision, this ghost goes Hand aloft, goodbye, goodbye, not down Into the rocky gizzard of the earth, But toward a region where our thick atmosphere Diminishes, and God knows what is there. A point of exclamation marks that sky In ringing orange like a stellar carrot. Its round period, displaced and green, Suspends beside it the first point, the starting Point of Eden, next the new moon's curve. Go, ghost of our mother and father, ghost of us, And ghost of our dreams' children, in those sheets Which signify our origin and end, To the cloud-cuckoo land of color wheels And pristine alphabets and cows that moo And moo as they jump over moons as new As that crisp cusp toward which you voyage now. Hail and farewell. Hello, goodbye. O keeper Of the profane grail, the dreaming skull. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 02 November Graveyard The scene stands stubborn: skinflint trees Hoard last year's leaves, won't mourn, wear sackcloth, or turn To elegiac dryads, and dour grass Guards the hard-hearted emerald of its grassiness However the grandiloquent mind may scorn Such poverty. No dead men's cries Flower forget-me-nots between the stones Paving this grave ground. Here's honest rot To unpick the heart, pare bone Free of the fictive vein. When one stark skeleton Bulks real, all saint's tongues fall quiet: Flies watch no reserrections in the sun. At the essential <a href="a/november_graveyard.mp3" target="_self">landscape</a> stare, stare Till your eyes foist a vision dazzling on the wind: Whatever lost ghosts flare Damned, howling in their shrouds across the moor Rave on the leash of the starving mind Which peoples the bare room, the blank, untenanted air. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 03 On the Plethora of Dryads Hearing a white saint rave About a quintessential beauty Visible only to the pargon heart, I tried my sight on an apple-tree That for eccentric knob and wart Had all my love. Without meat or drink I sat Starving my fantasy down To discover that metahpysical Tree which hid From my <a href="a/on_the_plethora_of_dryads.mp3" target="_self">worldling</a> look its brilliant vein Far deeper in gross wood Than axe could cut. But before I might blind sense To see with the spotless soul, Each particular quirk so ravished me Every pock and stain bulked more beautiful Than flesh of any body Flawed by love's prints. Battle however I would To break through that patchwork Of leaves' bicker and whisk in babel tongues, Streak and mottle of tawn bark, No visionary lightnings Pierced my dense lid. Instead, a wanton fit Dragged each dazzled sense apart Surfeiting eye, ear, taste, touch, smell; Now, snared by this miraculous art, I ride earth's burning carrousel Day in, day out, And such grit corrupts my eyes I must watch sluttish dryads twitch Their multifarious silks in the holy grove Until no chaste tree but suffers blotch Under flux of those seductive Reds, greens, blues. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 04 The Moon Was a Fat Woman Once They are always with us, the thin people Meager of dimension as the gray people On a movie-screen. They Are unreal, we say: It was only in a movie, it was only In a war making evil headlines when we Were small that they famished and Grew so lean and would not round Out their stalky limbs again though peace Plumped the bellies of the mice Under the meanest table. It was during the long hunger-battle They found their talent to persevere In thinness, to come, later, Into our bad dreams, their menace Not guns, not abuses, But a thin silence. Wrapped in flea-ridded donkey skins, Empty of complaint, forever Drinking vinegar from tin cups: they wore The insufferable nimbus of the lot-drawn Scapegoat. But so thin, So weedy a race could not remain in dreams, Could not remain outlandish victims In the contracted country of the head Any more than the old woman in her mud hut could Keep from cutting fat meat Out of the side of the generous moon when it Set foot <a href="a/the_moon_was_a_fat_woman_once.mp3" target="_self">nightly</a> in her yard Until her knife had pared The moon to a rind of little light. Now the thin people do not obliterate Themselves as the dawn Grayness blues, reddens, and the outline Of the world comes clear and fills with color. They persist in the sunlit room: the wallpaper Frieze of cabbage-roses and cornflowers pales Under their thin-lipped smiles, Their withering kingship. How they prop each other up! We own no wilderness rich and deep enough For stronghold against their stiff Battalions. See, how the tree boles flatten And lose their good browns If the thin people simply stand in the forest, Making the world go thin as a wasp's nest And grayer; not even moving their bones. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 05 Hardcastle Crags Flintlike, her feet struck Such a racket of echoes from the steely street, Tacking in moon-blued crooks from the black Stone-built town, that she heard the quick air ignite Its tinder and shake A firework of echoes from wall To wall of the dark, dwarfed cottages. But the echoes died at her back as the walls Gave way to fields and the incessant seethe of grasses Riding in the full Of the <a href="a/nocturne.mp3" target="_self">moon</a>, manes to the wind, Tireless, tied, as a moon-bound sea Moves on its root. Though a mist-wraith wound Up from the fissured valley and hung shoulder-high Ahead, it fattened To no family-featured ghost, Nor did any word body with a name The blank mood she walked in. Once past The dream-peopled village, her eyes entertained no dream, And the sandman's dust Lost luster under her footsoles. The long wind, paring her person down To a pinch of flame, blew its burdened whistle In the whorl of her ear, and like a scooped-out pumpkin crown Her head cupped the babel. All the night gave her, in return For the paltry gift of her bulk and the beat Of her heart was the humped indifferent iron Of its hills, and its pastures bordered by black stone set On black stone. Barns Guarded broods and litters Behind shut doors; the dairy herds Knelt in the meadow mute as boulders; Sheep drowsed stoneward in their tussocks of wool, and birds, Twig-sleep, wore Granite ruffs, their shadows The guise of leaves. The whole landscape Loomed absolute as the antique world was Once in its earliest sway of lymph and sap, Unaltered by eyes, Enough to snuff the quick Of her small heat out, but before the weight Of stones and hills of stones could break Her down to mere quartz grit n that stony light She turned back. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 06 Child's Park Stones In sunless air, under pines Green to the point of blackness, some Founding father set these lobed, warped stones To loom in the leaf-filtered gloom Black as the charred knuckle-bones Of a giant or extinct Animal, come from another Age, another planet surely. Flanked By the orange and fuchsia bonfire Of azaleas, sacrosanct These stones guard a dark repose And keep their shapes intact while sun Alters <a href="a/childs_park_stones.mp3" target="_self">shadows</a> of rose and iris --- Long, short, long --- in the lit garden And kindles a day's-end blaze Colored to dull the pigment Of azaleas, yet burnt out Quick as they. To follow the light's tint And intensity by midnight By noon and throughout the brunt Of various weathers is To know the still heart of the stones: Stones that take the whole summer to lose Their dream of the winter's cold; stones Warming at core only as Frost forms. No man's crowbar could Uproot them: their beards are ever- Green. Nor do they, once in a hundred Years, go down to drink the river: No thirst disturbs a stone's bed. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 07 The Lady and the Earthenware Head Fired in sanguine clay, the model bead Fit nowhere: brickdust-complected, eye under a dense lid, On the long bookshelf it stood Stolidly propping thick volumes of prose: spite-set Ape of her look. Best rid Hearthstone at once of the outrageous head; Still, she felt loath to junk it. No place, it seemed, for the effigy to fare Free from all molesting. Rough boys, Spying a pate to spare Glowering sullen and pompous from an ash-heap, Might well seize this prize, Maltreat the hostage head in shocking wise, And waken the sly nerve up That knits to each original its coarse copy. A dark tarn She thought of then, thick-silted, with weeds obscured, To serve her exacting turn: But out of the watery aspic, laureled by fins, The simulacrum leered, Lewdly beckoning, and her courage wavered: She blenched, as one who drowns, And resolved more ceremoniously to lodge The mimic head - in a crotched willow, green- Vaulted by foliage: Let bell-tongued birds descant in blackest feather On the rendering, grain by grain, Of that uncouth shape to simple sod again Through drear and dulcet weather, Yet, shrined on her shelf, the grisly visage endured, Despite her wrung hands, her tears, her praying: Vanish! Steadfast and evil-starred, It ogled through rock-fault, wind-flaw and fisted wave -- An antique bag-head, too tough for <a href="a/the_earthenware_head.mp3" target="_self">knife</a> to finish, Refusing to diminish By one jot its basilisk-Iook of love. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 08 On the Difficulty of Conjuring up a Dryad Ravening through the persistent bric-à-brac Of blunt pencils, rose-sprigged coffee cup, Postage stamps, stacked books' clamor and yawp, Neighborhood cockcrow - all nature's prodigal backtalk,      The vaunting mind      Snubs impromptu spiels of wind      And wrestles to impose      Its own order on what is. 'With my fantasy alone,' brags the importunate head, Arrogant among rook-tongued spaces, Sheep greens, finned falls, 'I shall compose a crisis To stun sky black out, drive gibbering mad      Trout, cock, ram,      That bulk so calm      On my jealous stare,      Self-sufficient as they are.' But no hocus-pocus of green angels Damasks with <a href="a/on_the_difficulty_of_conjuring_up_a_dryad.mp3" target="_self">dazzle</a> the threadbare eye; 'My trouble, doctor, is: I see a tree, And that damn scrupulous tree won't practice wiles      To beguile sight:      E.g., by cant of light      Concoct a Daphne;      My tree stays tree. 'However I wrench obstinate bark and trunk To my sweet will, no luminous shape Steps out radiant in limb, eye, lip, To hoodwink the honest earth which pointblank      Spurns such fiction      As nymphs; cold vision      Will bave no counterfeit      Palmed off on it. 'No doubt now in dream-propertied rail some moon-eyed, Star-lucky sleight-of-hand man watches My jilting lady squander coin, gold leaf stock ditches, And the opulent air go studded with seed,      While this beggared brain      Hatches no fortune,      But from leaf, from grass,      Thieves what it has.' &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 09 Green Rock - Winthrop Bay No lame excuses can gloss over Barge-tar clotted at the tide-line, the wrecked pier I should have known better. Fifteen years between me and the bay Profited memory, but did away with the old scenery And patched this shoddy Makeshift of a view to quit My promise of an idyll. the blue s worn out: It s a niggard estate, Inimical now. The great green rock We gave good use as ship and house is black With tarry much And periwinkles, shrunk to common Size. The cries of <a href="a/green_rock_winthrop_bay.mp3" target="_self">scavenging</a> gulls sound thin In the traffic of planes From Logan Airport opposite. Gulls circle grays under shadow of a steelier flight. Loss cancels profit. Unless you do this tawdry harbor A service and ignore it, I go a liar Gilding what s eyesore, Or must take loophole and blame time For the rock s dwarfed lump, for a the drabbled scum, For a churlish welcome. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 10 On the Decline of Oracles My father kept a vaulted conch By two bronze bookends of ships in sail, And as I listened its cold teeth seethed With voices of that ambiguous sea Old B&ouml;cklin missed, who held a shell To hear the sea he could not hear. What the seashell spoke to his inner ear He knew, but no peasants know. My father died, and when he died He willed his books and shell away. The books burned up, sea took the shell, But I, I keep the voices he Set in my ear, and in my eye The sight of those blue, unseen waves For which the ghost of Böcklin grieves. The peasants feast and multiply. <a href="a/on_the_decline_of_oracles.mp3" target="_self">Eclipsing</a> the spitted ox I see Neither brazen swan nor burning star, Heraldry of a starker age, But three men entering the yard, And those men coming up the stair. Profitless, their gossiping images Invade the cloistral eye like pages From a gross comic strip, and toward The happening of this happening The earth turns now. In half an hour I shall go down the shabby stair and meet, Coming up, those three. Worth Less than present, past - this future. Worthless such vision to eyes gone dull That once descried Troy's towers fall, Saw evil break out of the north. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 11 The Goring Arena dust rusted by four bulls' blood to a dull redness, The afternoon at a bad end under the crowd's truculence, The ritual death each time botched among dropped capes, ill-judged stabs, The strongest will seemed a will towards ceremony. Obese, dark- Faced in his rich yellows, tassels, pompons, braid, the picador Rode out against the fifth bull to brace his pike and slowly bear Down deep into the bent bull-neck. Cumbrous routine, not artwork. Instinct for art began with the bull's horn lofting in the mob's Hush a lumped man-shape. The whole act formal, fluent as a dance. Blood <a href="a/the_goring.mp3" target="_self">faultlessly</a> broached redeemed the sullied air, the earth's grossness. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 12 Ouija It is a chilly god, a god of shades, Rises to the glass from his black fathoms. At the window, those <a href="a/ouija.mp3" target="_self">unborn</a>, those undone Assemble with the frail paleness of moths, An envious phosphorescence in their wings. Vermillions, bronzes, colors of the sun In the coal fire will not wholly console them. Imagine their deep hunger, deep as the dark For the blood-heat that would ruddlr or reclaim. The glass mouth sucks blooh-heat from my forefinger. The old god dribbles, in return, his words. The old god, too, write aureate poetry In tarnished modes, maundering among the wastes, Fair chronicler of every foul declension. Age, and ages of prose, have uncoiled His talking whirlwind, abated his excessive temper When words, like locusts, drummed the darkening air And left the cobs to rattle, bitten clean. Skies once wearing a blue, divine hauteur Ravel above us, mistily descend, Thickening with motes, to a marriage with the mire. He hymns the rotten queen with saffron hair Who has saltier aphrodisiacs Than virgins' tears. That bawdy queen of death, Her wormy couriers aer at his bones. Still he hymns juice of her, hot nectarine. I see him, horny-skinned and tough, construe What flinty pebbles and ploughable upturns As ponderable tokens of her love. He, godly, doddering, spells No succinct Gabriel from the letters here But floridly, his amorous nostalgias. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 13 The Beggars of Benidorm Market Nightfall, cold eye - neither disheartens These goatish tragedians who Hawk misfortune like figs and chickens And, plaintiff against each day, decry Nature's partial, haphazard thumb. Under white wall and Moorish window Grief's honest grimace, debased by time, Caricatures itself and thrives On the coins of pity. At random A beggar stops among eggs and loaves, Props a leg-stump upon a crutch, Jiggles his tin cup at the goodwives. By lack and loss these beggars encroach On spirits tenderer than theirs, Suffering-toughened beyond the fetch Of finest conscience. Nightfall obscures The bay's sheer, extravagant blue, White house and almond grove. The beggars Outlast their evilest <a href="a/the_beggars_of_benidorm_market.mp3" target="_self">star</a>, wryly And with a perfidious verve Baffle the dark, the pitying eye. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 14 Sculptor For Leonard Baskin To his house the bodiless Come to barter endlessly Vision, wisdom, for bodies Palpable as his, and weighty. Hands moving move priestlier Than priest's hands, invoke no vain Images of light and air But sure stations in bronze, wood, stone. Obdurate, in dense-grained wood, A bald angel blocks and shapes The flimsy light; arms folded Watches his cumbrous world eclipse Inane worlds of <a href="a/sculptor.mp3" target="_self">wind</a> and cloud. Bronze dead dominate the floor, Resistive, ruddy-bodied, Dwarfing us. Our bodies flicker Toward extinction in those eyes Which, without him, were beggared Of place, time, and their bodies. Emulous spirits make discord, Try entry, enter nightmares Until his chisel bequeaths Them life livelier than ours, A solider repose than death's. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 15 The Disquieting Muses Mother, mother, what illbred aunt Or what disfigured and unsightly Cousin did you so unwisely keep Unasked to my <a href="a/the_disquieting_muses.mp3" target="_self">christening</a>, that she Sent these ladies in her stead With heads like darning-eggs to nod And nod and nod at foot and head And at the left side of my crib? Mother, who made to order stories Of Mixie Blackshort the heroic bear, Mother, whose witches always, always, Got baked into gingerbread, I wonder Whether you saw them, whether you said Words to rid me of those three ladies Nodding by night around my bed, Mouthless, eyeless, with stitched bald head. In the hurricane, when father's twelve Study windows bellied in Like bubbles about to break, you fed My brother and me cookies and Ovaltine And helped the two of us to choir: "Thor is angry: boom boom boom! Thor is angry: we don't care!" But those ladies broke the panes. When on tiptoe the schoolgirls danced, Blinking flashlights like fireflies And singing the glowworm song, I could Not lift a foot in the twinkle-dress But, heavy-footed, stood aside In the shadow cast by my dismal-headed Godmothers, and you cried and cried: And the shadow stretched, the lights went out. Mother, you sent me to piano lessons And praised my arabesques and trills Although each teacher found my touch Oddly wooden in spite of scales And the hours of practicing, my ear Tone-deaf and yes, unteachable. I learned, I learned, I learned elsewhere, From muses unhired by you, dear mother, I woke one day to see you, mother, Floating above me in bluest air On a green balloon bright with a million Flowers and bluebirds that never were Never, never, found anywhere. But the little planet bobbed away Like a soap-bubble as you called: Come here! And I faced my traveling companions. Day now, night now, at head, side, feet, They stand their vigil in gowns of stone, Faces blank as the day I was born, Their shadows long in the setting sun That never brightens or goes down. And this is the kingdom you bore me to, Mother, mother. But no frown of mine Will betray the company I keep. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 16 Spinster Now this particular girl During a ceremonious April walk With her latest suitor Found herself, of a sudden, intolerably struck By the birds' irregular babel And the leaves' litter. By this tumult afflicted, she Observed her lover's gestures unbalance the air, His gait stray uneven Through a rank wilderness of fern and flower. She judged petals in disarray, The whole season, sloven. How she longed for winter then!-- Scrupulously austere in its order Of white and black Ice and rock, each sentiment within border, And heart's frosty discipline Exact as a <a href="a/spinster.mp3" target="_self">snowflake</a>. But here--a burgeoning Unruly enough to pitch her five queenly wits Into vulgar motley-- A treason not to be borne. Let idiots Reel giddy in bedlam spring: She withdrew neatly. And round her house she set Such a barricade of barb and check Against mutinous weather As no mere insurgent man could hope to break With curse, fist, threat Or love, either. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 17 Parliament Hill Fields On this bald hill the new year hones its edge. Faceless and pale as china The round sky goes on minding its business. Your absence is inconspicuous; Nobody can tell what I lack. Gulls have threaded the river's mud bed back To this crest of grass.  Inland, they argue, Settling and stirring like blown paper Or the hands of an invalid.  The wan Sun manages to strike such tin glints From the linked ponds that my eyes wince And brim; the city melts like sugar. A <a href="a/parliment_hill_fields.mp3" target="_self">crocodile</a> of small girls Knotting and stopping, ill-assorted, in blue uniforms, Opens to swallow me.  I'm a stone, a stick, One child drops a barrette of pink plastic; None of them seem to notice. Their shrill, gravelly gossip's funneled off. Now silence after silence offers itself. The wind stops my breath like a bandage. Southward, over Kentish Town, an ashen smudge Swaddles roof and tree. It could be a snowfield or a cloudbank. I suppose it's pointless to think of you at all. Already your doll grip lets go. The tumulus, even at noon, guards its black shadow: You know me less constant, Ghost of a leaf, ghost of a bird. I circle the writhen trees.  I am too happy. These faithful dark-boughed cypresses Brood, rooted in their heaped losses. Your cry fades like the cry of a gnat. I lose sight of you on your blind journey, While the heath grass glitters and the spindling rivulets Unspool and spend themselves.  My mind runs with them, Pooling in heel-prints, fumbling pebble and stem. The day empties its images Like a cup or a room.  The moon's crook whitens, Thin as the skin seaming a scar. Now, on the nursery wall, The blue night plants, the little pale blue hill In your sister's birthday picture start to glow. The orange pompons, the Egyptian papyrus Light up.  Each rabbit-eared Blue shrub behind the glass Exhales an indigo nimbus, A sort of cellophane balloon. The old dregs, the old difficulties take me to wife. Gulls stiffen to their chill vigil in the drafty half-light; I enter the lit house. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 18 The Stones This is the city where men are mended. I lie on a great anvil. The flat blue sky-circle Flew off like the hat of a doll When I fell out of the light. I entered The stomach of indifference, the wordless cupboard. The mother of pestles diminished me. I became a still pebble. The <a href="a/the_stones.mp3" target="_self">stones</a> of the belly were peaceable, The head-stone quiet, jostled by nothing. Only the mouth-hole piped out, Importunate cricket In a quarry of silences. The people of the city heard it. They hunted the stones, taciturn and separate, The mouth-hole crying their locations. Drunk as a foetus I suck at the paps of darkness. The food tubes embrace me. Sponges kiss my lichens away. The jewelmaster drives his chisel to pry Open one stone eye. This is the after-hell: I see the light. A wind unstoppers the chamber Of the ear, old worrier. Water mollifies the flint lip, And daylight lays its sameness on the wall. The grafters are cheerful, Heating the pincers, hoisting the delicate hammers. A current agitates the wires Volt upon volt. Catgut stitches my fissures. A workman walks by carrying a pink torso. The storerooms are full of hearts. This is the city of spare parts. My swaddled legs and arms smell sweet as rubber. Here they can doctor heads, or any limb. On Fridays the little children come To trade their hooks for hands. Dead men leave eyes for others. Love is the uniform of my bald nurse. Love is the bone and sinew of my curse. The vase, reconstructed, houses The elusive rose. Ten fingers shape a bowl for shadows. My mendings itch. There is nothing to do. I shall be good as new. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 19 Leaving Early Lady, your room is lousy with flowers. When you kick me out, that's what I'll remember, Me, sitting here bored as a loepard In your jungle of wine-bottle lamps, Velvet pillows the color of blood pudding And the white china flying fish from Italy. I forget you, hearing the cut flowers Sipping their liquids from assorted pots, Pitchers and Coronation goblets Like Monday drunkards. The milky berries Bow down, a local constellation, Toward their admirers in the tabletop: Mobs of eyeballs looking up. Are those petals of leaves you've paried with them --- Those green-striped ovals of silver tissue? The red geraniums I know. Friends, friends. They stink of armpits And the invovled maladies of autumn, Musky as a lovebed the morning after. My nostrils prickle with nostalgia. Henna hags:cloth of your cloth. They tow old water thick as fog. The roses in the Toby jug Gave up the ghost last night. High time. Their yellow corsets were ready to split. You snored, and I heard the petals unlatch, Tapping and ticking like nervous fingers. You should have junked them before they died. Daybreak discovered the bureau lid Littered with Chinese hands. Now I'm stared at By chrysanthemums the size Of Holofernes' head, dipped in the same Magenta as this fubsy sofa. In the mirror their doubles back them up. Listen: your tenant mice Are rattling the cracker packets. Fine flour Muffles their bird feet: they whistle for joy. And you doze on, nose to the wall. This mizzle fits me like a sad jacket. How did we make it up to your attic? You handed me gin in a <a href="a/leaving_early.mp3" target="_self">glass</a> bud vase. We slept like stones. Lady, what am I doing With a lung full of dust and a tongue of wood, Knee-deep in the cold swamped by flowers? &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 20 Candles They are the last romantics, these candles: Upside-down hearts of light tipping wax fingers, And the fingers, taken in by their own haloes, Grown milky, almost clear, like the bodies of saints. It is touching, the way they'll ignore A whole family of prominent objects Simply to plumb the deeps of an eye In its hollow of shadows, its fringe of reeds, And the owner past thirty, no beauty at all. Daylight would be more judicious, Giving everybody a fair hearing. They should have gone out with the balloon flights and the stereopticon. This is no time for the private point of view. When I light them, my nostrils prickle. Their pale, <a href="a/candles.mp3" target="_self">tentative</a> yellows Drag up false, Edwardian sentiments, And I remember my maternal grandmother from Vienna. As a schoolgirl she gave roses to Franz Josef. The burghers sweated and wept. The children wore white. And my grandfather moped in the Tyrol, Imagining himself a headwaiter in America, Floating in a high-church hush Among ice buckets, frosty napkins. These little globes of light are sweet as pears. Kindly with invalids and mawkish women, They mollify the bald moon. Nun-souled, they burn heavenward and never marry. The eyes of the child I nurse are scarcely open. In twenty years I shall be retrograde As these drafty ephemerids. I watch their spilt tears cloud and dull to pearls. How shall I tell anything at all To this infant still in a birth-drowse? Tonight, like a shawl, the mild light enfolds her, The shadows stoop over the guests at a christening. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 21 Mushrooms "Overnight, very Whitely, discreetly, Very <a href="a/mushrooms.mp3" target="_self">quietly</a> Our toes, our noses Take hold on the loam, Acquire the air. Nobody sees us, Stops us, betrays us; The small grains make room. Soft fists insist on Heaving the needles, The leafy bedding, Even the paving. Our hammers, our rams, Earless and eyeless, Perfectly voiceless, Widen the crannies, Shoulder through holes. We Diet on water, On crumbs of shadow, Bland-mannered, asking Little or nothing. So many of us! So many of us! We are shelves, we are Tables, we are meek, We are edible, Nudgers and shovers In spite of ourselves. Our kind multiplies: We shall by morning Inherit the earth. Our foot's in the door." &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 22 Berck - Plage (I) This is the sea, then, this great abeyance. How the sun's poultice draws on my inflammation. Electrifyingly-colored sherbets, scooped from the freeze; By pale girls, travel the air in scorched hands. Why is it so quiet, what are they hiding? I have two legs, and I move smilingly. A sandy damper kills the vibrations; It stretches for miles, the shrunk voices Waving and crutchless, half their old size. The lines of the eye, scalded by these bald surfaces, Boomerang like <a href="a/berck_plage.mp3" target="_self">anchored</a> elastics, hurting the owner. Is it any wonder he puts on dark glasses? Is it any wonder he affects a black cassock? Here he comes now, among the mackerel gatherers Who wall up their backs against him. They are handling the black and green lozenges like the perts of a body. The sea, that crystallized these, Creeps away, many-snaked, with a long hiss of distress. (II) This black boot has no mercy for anybody. Why should it, it is the hearse of a dead foot, The high, dead, toeless foot of this priest Who plumbs the well of his book, The bent print bulging before him like scenery. Obscene bikinis hide in the dunes, Breasts and hips a confectioner's sugar Of little crystals, titillating the light, While a green pool opens its eye, Sick with what it has swallowed - Limbs, images, shrieks. Behind the concrete bunkers Two lovers unstick themselves. O white sea-crockery, What cupped sighs, what salt in the throat.... And the onlooker, trembling, Drawn like a long material Through a still virulence, And a weed, hairy as privates. (III) On the balconies of the hotel, things are glittering. Things, things - Tubular steel wheelchairs, aluminium crutches. Such salt-sweetness. Why should I walk Beyond the breakwater, spotty with barnacles? I am not a nurse, white and attendant, I am not a smile. These children are after something, with hooks and cries, And my heart too small to bandage their terrible faults. This is the side of a man: his red ribs, The nerves bursting like trees, and this is the surgeon: One mirrory eye - A facet of knowledge. On a striped mattress in one room An old man is vanishing. There is no help in his weeping wife. Where are the eye-stones, yellow and valuable, And the tongue, sapphire of ash. (IV) A wedding-cake face in a paper frill. How superior he is now. It is like possessing a saint. The nurses in their wing-caps are no longer so beautiful; They are browning, like touched gardenias. The bed is rolled from the wall. This is what it is to be complete. It is horrible. Is he wearing pyjamas or an evening suit Under the glued sheet from which his powdery beak Rises so whitely unbuffeted? They propped his jaw with a book until it stiffened And folded his hands, that were shaking: goodbye, goodbye. Now the washed sheets fly in the sun, The pillow cases are sweetening. It is a blessing, it is a blessing: The long coffin of soap-coloured oak, The curious bearers and the raw date Engraving itself in silver with marvellous calm. (V) The grey sky lowers, the hills like a green sea Run fold upon fold far off, concealing their hollows, The hollows in which rock the thoughts of the wife - Blunt, practical boats Full of dresses and hats and china and married daughters. In the parlour of the stone house One curtain is flickering from the open window, Flickering and pouring, a pitiful candle. This is the tongue of the dead man: remember, remember. How far he is now, his actions Around him like livingroom furniture, like a décor. As the pallors gather - The pallors of hands and neighbourly faces, The elate pallors of flying iris. They are flying off into nothing: remember us. The empty benches of memory look over stones, Marble facades with blue veins, and jelly-glassfuls of daffodils. It is so beautiful up here: it is a stopping place. (VI) The natural fatness of these lime leaves! - Pollarded green balls, the trees march to church. The voice of the priest, in thin air, Meets the corpse at the gate, Addressing it, while the hills roll the notes of the dead bell; A glitter of wheat and crude earth. What is the name of that colour? - Old blood of caked walls the sun heals, Old blood of limb stumps, burnt hearts. The widow with her black pocketbook and three daughters, Necessary among the flowers, Enfolds her face like fine linen, Not to be spread again. While a sky, wormy with put-by smiles, Passes cloud after cloud. And the bride flowers expend a freshness, And the soul is a bride In a still place, and the groom is red and forgetful, he is featureless. (VII) Behind the glass of this car The world purrs, shut-off and gentle. And I am dark-suited and still, a member of the party, Gliding up in low gear behind the cart. And the priest is a vessel, A tarred fabric, sorry and dull, Following the coffin on its flowery cart like a beautiful woman, A crest of breasts, eyelids and lips Storming the hilltop. Then, from the barred yard, the children Smell the melt of shoe-blacking, Their faces turning, wordless and slow, Their eyes opening On a wonderful thing - Six round black hats in the grass and a lozenge of wood, And a naked mouth, red and awkward. For a minute the sky pours into the hole like plasma. There is no hope, it is given up. &middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot;&middot; 23 The Surgeon at 2 A.M. The white light is artificial, and hygienic as heaven. The microbes cannot survive it. They are departing in their transparent garments, turned aside From the scalpels and the rubber hands. The scalded sheet is a snowfield, frozen and peaceful. The body under it is in my hands. As usual there is no face. A lump of Chinese white With seven holes thumbed in. The soul is another light. I have not seen it; it does not fly up. Tonight it has receded like a ship's light. It is a garden I have to do with --- tubers and fruit Oozing their jammy substances, A mat of roots. My assistants hook them back. Stenches and colors assail me. This is the lung-tree. These orchids are <a href="a/the_surgeon_at_2am.mp3" target="_self">splendid</a>. They spot and coil like snakes. The heart is a red bell-bloom, in distress. I am so small In comparison to these organs! I worm and hack in a purple wilderness. The blood is a sunset. I admire it. I am up to my elbows in it, red and squeaking. Still is seeps me up, it is not exhausted. So magical! A hot spring I must seal off and let fill The intricate, blue piping under this pale marble. How I admire the Romans --- Aqeducts, the Baths of Caracella, the eagle nose! The body is a Roman thing. It has shut its mouth on the stone pill of repose. It is a statue the orderlies are wheeling off. I have perfected it. I am left with and arm or a leg, A set of teeth, or stones To rattle in a bottle and take home, And tissues in slices--a pathological salami. Tonight the parts are entombed in an icebox. Tomorrow they will swim In vinegar like saints' relics. Tomorrow the patient will have a clean, pink plastic limb. Over one bed in the ward, a small blue light Announces a new soul. The bed is blue. Tonight, for this person, blue is a beautiful color. The angels of morphia have borne him up. He floats an inch from the ceiling, Smelling the dawn drafts. I walk among sleepers in gauze sarcophagi. The red night lights are flat moons. They are dull with blood. 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